oh, queen with david bowie. i love your duet, even though i do not relate to it.
yes, i did feel the need to write something.
Oct 28, 2004
Oct 26, 2004
blue and red and black and gray
as october winds down, i find myself wondering how much more waiting i'm going to do before i finally make my million moves. i have pages and chapters and volumes full of intentions, and i never seem to know how to time things just so so that everything is said and everything is done as i planned them to be said and done.
so here i am, "standing on the precipice of big time," thinking of all the things i could do to make myself someone else, and the only thing that keeps coming to mind is the ludacris notion to change what has already been done.
i'm a lunatic and i know it, but at least i can admit it.
and if you want to know what got me thinking on this track, it was initially finding out alicia was accepted at ucf, but then i thought of something else when my mom set a cd from ncyc 2003 in front of me.
it's still in the wrapper, and i doubt i'll open it.
so here i am, "standing on the precipice of big time," thinking of all the things i could do to make myself someone else, and the only thing that keeps coming to mind is the ludacris notion to change what has already been done.
i'm a lunatic and i know it, but at least i can admit it.
and if you want to know what got me thinking on this track, it was initially finding out alicia was accepted at ucf, but then i thought of something else when my mom set a cd from ncyc 2003 in front of me.
it's still in the wrapper, and i doubt i'll open it.
Oct 19, 2004
attention fordsters of the tampa/lutz area:
if you or anyone you know (and i do quite literally mean anyone) drives a ford mustang made in any year from 1980 to 2000, please let me know. if you leave a comment in the affirmative, i will get in touch with you so you do not have to publish personal contact information.
take me, wilmer.
this week so far has been easy, and tomorrow we have career predicting for the first four periods. i'm trying out for plumber.
i'm completely out of things to say.
i'm completely out of things to say.
Oct 17, 2004
kitamara
i spent the weekend at my sister's house. in fact, i'm there right now. we went out friday night and ate blindfold pizza and then went to a volleyball game. yesterday, we went to the uf versus middle tennessee game. once again, i am burnt on the left half of my face and on my left arm. last night was fun, too. i mean, aqua teen hunger force? get with it, meatwads.
and a good weekened was had by all.
and a good weekened was had by all.
Oct 11, 2004
balogna shoes
i can't wait for the weekened. football and probably a sunburn and moe's knows a joey bag of doughnuts and probably art vanderbilt, too.
point is, i'm still recuperating from saturday, and by saturday i mean sunday.
and by sunday i mean sleepy.
if you have any extra flashlights, could i borrow them and never return them please?
time to be in fourth period.
point is, i'm still recuperating from saturday, and by saturday i mean sunday.
and by sunday i mean sleepy.
if you have any extra flashlights, could i borrow them and never return them please?
time to be in fourth period.
Oct 10, 2004
all my life
"i prayed for someone like you,
and i hope that you feel the same way, too."
what an amazing night.
and i hope that you feel the same way, too."
what an amazing night.
Oct 9, 2004
piano man
i'm bursting with excitement.
if i was a balloon, i would pop.
if i was a tank, i would be spewing gas.
if i was an engine, i could.
just to give you an idea.
i really like my hair this year, too. i usually wind up not liking it, but i'm nearly in love with it.
oh, vanity of vanities.
time to load up on caffiene and pack my things for tonight. i can't wait to see everyone in their formal attire.
it's... devine.
if i was a balloon, i would pop.
if i was a tank, i would be spewing gas.
if i was an engine, i could.
just to give you an idea.
i really like my hair this year, too. i usually wind up not liking it, but i'm nearly in love with it.
oh, vanity of vanities.
time to load up on caffiene and pack my things for tonight. i can't wait to see everyone in their formal attire.
it's... devine.
Oct 8, 2004
whipperwools
what a day.
and now that THE homecoming weekend is officially upon us, i have much to do and little time to do it in.
senior mayhem.
i think that's why i love homecoming saturday so much - you do a bunch of prepatory junk all morning and afternoon, and it really hypes you up to be so busy all day getting ready for this big event.
kind of like christmas, except your only present is being pretty, which, i must say, makes it a close second to the aforementioned holiday.
so, guess what?
I CAN'T WAIT.
other notes:
happy birthday, erin! i love you!
if your sociology teacher says the words "the," "dying," and "rooms" in that order, plug your ears. if your sociology teacher turns on a television set after saying those three words in that order, leave.
the ingredients in potted meat are actually grosser than the title implies.
jack handy for president.
and now that THE homecoming weekend is officially upon us, i have much to do and little time to do it in.
senior mayhem.
i think that's why i love homecoming saturday so much - you do a bunch of prepatory junk all morning and afternoon, and it really hypes you up to be so busy all day getting ready for this big event.
kind of like christmas, except your only present is being pretty, which, i must say, makes it a close second to the aforementioned holiday.
so, guess what?
I CAN'T WAIT.
other notes:
happy birthday, erin! i love you!
if your sociology teacher says the words "the," "dying," and "rooms" in that order, plug your ears. if your sociology teacher turns on a television set after saying those three words in that order, leave.
the ingredients in potted meat are actually grosser than the title implies.
jack handy for president.
Oct 7, 2004
so guess what's cool?
night pep rallies.
and new clothes today.
and hair pictures after school.
and not this class right now.
and definately going to a game next weekend.
and certainly me and booger dressing up in black on hawaiian day.
and chariots that have spontaneously caught on fire.
and not green marker on my thumb.
night pep rallies.
and new clothes today.
and hair pictures after school.
and not this class right now.
and definately going to a game next weekend.
and certainly me and booger dressing up in black on hawaiian day.
and chariots that have spontaneously caught on fire.
and not green marker on my thumb.
Oct 6, 2004
and if you're really nice ...
maybe we'll put on our classics and have a little dance, shall we?
i can't wait.
COME TO ME, SATURDAY.
i can't wait.
COME TO ME, SATURDAY.
revenge of the nerds.
mr. n.: "are you making fun of the way i dress?"
jason: "not directly."
and now to the much debated "should girls ask guys out?" topic.
personally, i think it's alright for that to happen. would i do it? sure. it may not always go over too smoothly, but that's just what a guy would have to face in a similar situation. it's kind of mean that we have this norm where guys initiate dates. i mean, really - that sucks, because who doesn't like being asked out?
then again, we carry around babies for nine months and pop them out of us, so it's actually pretty fair.
problem solved?
good.
by the way, it's fourth period and i have absolutely NOTHING to do.
i have to work tonight. maybe we'll play dress-up again.
bananas.
jason: "not directly."
and now to the much debated "should girls ask guys out?" topic.
personally, i think it's alright for that to happen. would i do it? sure. it may not always go over too smoothly, but that's just what a guy would have to face in a similar situation. it's kind of mean that we have this norm where guys initiate dates. i mean, really - that sucks, because who doesn't like being asked out?
then again, we carry around babies for nine months and pop them out of us, so it's actually pretty fair.
problem solved?
good.
by the way, it's fourth period and i have absolutely NOTHING to do.
i have to work tonight. maybe we'll play dress-up again.
bananas.
Oct 4, 2004
hanging on maybe
i haven't been writing anything lately because i have absolutely nothing to say, to be quite honest, but i'll try to jazz it up just this once.
homecoming is on saturday. rose, nails, hair, makeup, jim, christy's, dance, kelly's - in that order.
next weekend i'm going to gainesville to visit my sister. phone conversation with boss:
"hey, terri. it's maggie. i know i asked for this weekend off, but i was wondering if i could have the following weekened as well. ...what's that? this course of action would result in the termination of my employment? that's a darn shame. ...no, i would still like the following weekend off. goodbye."
except that didn't happen at all.
ben kweller is the feature flavor of the month.
and being single just ran out of perks.
homecoming is on saturday. rose, nails, hair, makeup, jim, christy's, dance, kelly's - in that order.
next weekend i'm going to gainesville to visit my sister. phone conversation with boss:
"hey, terri. it's maggie. i know i asked for this weekend off, but i was wondering if i could have the following weekened as well. ...what's that? this course of action would result in the termination of my employment? that's a darn shame. ...no, i would still like the following weekend off. goodbye."
except that didn't happen at all.
ben kweller is the feature flavor of the month.
and being single just ran out of perks.
Oct 3, 2004
feeling sporty?
spirit week is upon us, and homecoming is less than a week away.
who's excited? this girl right here.
just thought i'd restate the obvious.
who's excited? this girl right here.
just thought i'd restate the obvious.
Oct 2, 2004
Sep 29, 2004
Sep 28, 2004
well, that was interesting.
fortunately, sweeney saved me last night by letting me sleep over at her house, where i caught the wimblies.
"what's up?"
"chillaxin'."
"do you need a laxative?"
props to april for her drive-by hugging.
oh, mrs. doubtfire.
i would end this properly, but - you know.
"what's up?"
"chillaxin'."
"do you need a laxative?"
props to april for her drive-by hugging.
oh, mrs. doubtfire.
i would end this properly, but - you know.
Sep 26, 2004
everybody wants to pass as cats.
i heard "here's to the night" yesterday.
it's almost october. i know we haven't even finished one quarter yet, but this is it - this is really it.
you sat there in second grade thinking you would die before you graduated; you never imagined yourself sitting in a chair in late september of your senior year thinking of the past you and where you were as opposed to where you are.
it's going to be over soon i know, and the next four years will become yesterdays in no time at all. it's odd to think how quickly time goes by just as you're wanting it to slow down.
even still, i absolutely can't wait.
i guess i'm just a hurricane.
it's almost october. i know we haven't even finished one quarter yet, but this is it - this is really it.
you sat there in second grade thinking you would die before you graduated; you never imagined yourself sitting in a chair in late september of your senior year thinking of the past you and where you were as opposed to where you are.
it's going to be over soon i know, and the next four years will become yesterdays in no time at all. it's odd to think how quickly time goes by just as you're wanting it to slow down.
even still, i absolutely can't wait.
i guess i'm just a hurricane.
Sep 24, 2004
i broke a witch.
that was definately the funniest moment of the day.
you know how unfuny it is when a customer loses a one hundred and forty dollar bracelet?
very.
amber and i are going out in a little while. tomorrow night i will hopefully get to see my mentor and mind reader.
other than that, that's pretty much it. have a BEAUTIFUL night.
you know how unfuny it is when a customer loses a one hundred and forty dollar bracelet?
very.
amber and i are going out in a little while. tomorrow night i will hopefully get to see my mentor and mind reader.
other than that, that's pretty much it. have a BEAUTIFUL night.
Sep 22, 2004
i don't like being misunderstood.
and to be honest, i think that's all i've been lately.
so i'm going to quit.
sure - i'll still say things as indirectly as ever, but i'm coming to realize that you can't be understood without another wanting to understand.
when i laugh, it's not out of cruelty; it's just what i felt like doing, so i did it.
when i cry, it's not because i'm sad; stress and empathy make me do that sometimes.
so with you over there and me not so much farther away than the thickness of a grain of sand, i'll let you know how it's going to be.
so i'm going to quit.
sure - i'll still say things as indirectly as ever, but i'm coming to realize that you can't be understood without another wanting to understand.
when i laugh, it's not out of cruelty; it's just what i felt like doing, so i did it.
when i cry, it's not because i'm sad; stress and empathy make me do that sometimes.
so with you over there and me not so much farther away than the thickness of a grain of sand, i'll let you know how it's going to be.
Sep 21, 2004
some people laugh at dreamers, but we're not that at all.
if the past years were dreaming, then sleep is all i want.
Sep 20, 2004
standing on the precipice of big time
"perfect love drives out all fear."
thank you, john. i'll try to keep that in mind.
as for now, i'm relishing in all the options and having no clue what lovely door to step inside. the only thing that i fear is being alone, or lacking love.
funny how that works, isn't it?
so what is "perfect love," and what is "fear?"
only a handful of times have i experienced perfect love, and it's not what you think it is, either. i'm not talking about the boyfriend kind of love or the parent kind of love or the best friend kind of love or the really-big-crush kind of love; i'm talking about something inside of you you only experience when you need it the most to keep you going, to keep you strong, to keep you alive and well and happy and hoping.
fear? that's something we all experience, and i have no other interpretation of it for you than the one you provide yourself with.
sometimes it seems that there are so many things in life to fear that there can be no perfect love, no hope for humanity in times of suffering or stress or complete lack of direction.
and then, right when you expect it the least in the most unlikely situation you can think of to date, it happens. it washes over you and you would like to say you didn't know it was coming when it started, but you did. it comes out of your heart and swims through your body, touching every part that had been asleep for lack of motivation or out of fear of being brought to consciousness. it all awakens so suddenly and there you are, standing in a sunset or under the moon. one minute you're who you've been; the next, you're who you haven't been for a long time.
i guess that's my favorite thing to experience - this perfect love we so often seek and so rarely find.
if you don't know what i'm talking about, i suggest you find out, but i find it difficult to believe that anyone could have gotten this far without ever having felt it.
thank you, john. i'll try to keep that in mind.
as for now, i'm relishing in all the options and having no clue what lovely door to step inside. the only thing that i fear is being alone, or lacking love.
funny how that works, isn't it?
so what is "perfect love," and what is "fear?"
only a handful of times have i experienced perfect love, and it's not what you think it is, either. i'm not talking about the boyfriend kind of love or the parent kind of love or the best friend kind of love or the really-big-crush kind of love; i'm talking about something inside of you you only experience when you need it the most to keep you going, to keep you strong, to keep you alive and well and happy and hoping.
fear? that's something we all experience, and i have no other interpretation of it for you than the one you provide yourself with.
sometimes it seems that there are so many things in life to fear that there can be no perfect love, no hope for humanity in times of suffering or stress or complete lack of direction.
and then, right when you expect it the least in the most unlikely situation you can think of to date, it happens. it washes over you and you would like to say you didn't know it was coming when it started, but you did. it comes out of your heart and swims through your body, touching every part that had been asleep for lack of motivation or out of fear of being brought to consciousness. it all awakens so suddenly and there you are, standing in a sunset or under the moon. one minute you're who you've been; the next, you're who you haven't been for a long time.
i guess that's my favorite thing to experience - this perfect love we so often seek and so rarely find.
if you don't know what i'm talking about, i suggest you find out, but i find it difficult to believe that anyone could have gotten this far without ever having felt it.
Sep 18, 2004
we count only blue cars.
it's been a good morning.
and also, rachel is eighteen today.
my stomach is still being kind of gay, but that's alright.
back to rachel, i'm going to have some more fantastic plans tonight. boy i cannot wait bt i still love you townhouse oh boy fun times mel c jen i love you guys you are such a great sister jess oh my gosh ryan is a fag.
i can't wait for homecoming. i really can't. it's going to be so much fun.
it is, it is.
i'm going to go pretty-up for workio. have a great afternoon, you.
and also, rachel is eighteen today.
my stomach is still being kind of gay, but that's alright.
back to rachel, i'm going to have some more fantastic plans tonight. boy i cannot wait bt i still love you townhouse oh boy fun times mel c jen i love you guys you are such a great sister jess oh my gosh ryan is a fag.
i can't wait for homecoming. i really can't. it's going to be so much fun.
it is, it is.
i'm going to go pretty-up for workio. have a great afternoon, you.
and suddenly, an orange.
i'm a bit more myself now that i've talked it all out and let things settle.
in fact, i'm feeling pretty damn good at the moment.
"hi. my name is llaves or raul or something, and i did something incredibly productive tonight. TWICE."
so now that no one knows what i'm talking about, i'll fill you in:
JUST KIDDING!
in fact, i'm feeling pretty damn good at the moment.
"hi. my name is llaves or raul or something, and i did something incredibly productive tonight. TWICE."
so now that no one knows what i'm talking about, i'll fill you in:
JUST KIDDING!
Sep 14, 2004
everybody knows it sucks to grow up.
sunday, sunday, sunday - what a day.
i really can't update because i really don't have anything appropriate to say. while that may not have stopped me before, it's stopping me now.
i know i say things and then i don't do them, but i might not update for a while. i'm just not in the "hey. let's be us." kind of mood right now.
so, without further adieu, i leave you with a word from the man who wrote my anthem without my knowing it:
"the years go on and we're still fighting it."
i really can't update because i really don't have anything appropriate to say. while that may not have stopped me before, it's stopping me now.
i know i say things and then i don't do them, but i might not update for a while. i'm just not in the "hey. let's be us." kind of mood right now.
so, without further adieu, i leave you with a word from the man who wrote my anthem without my knowing it:
"the years go on and we're still fighting it."
Sep 12, 2004
chicken chunnks. ...not!
with boarded windows, it is impossible to tell what time of day it is.
i feel like a bobo.
i feel like a bobo.
shit, fuck, dammit.
thank you, beta, for the inspiration.
i noticed a lot of coincidences today. not that any of them were particularly significant, but i just noticed a lot of them.
good gosh. i'm tired.
goodnight.
i noticed a lot of coincidences today. not that any of them were particularly significant, but i just noticed a lot of them.
good gosh. i'm tired.
goodnight.
Sep 10, 2004
rex manning and company
today, loves, i post my three-hundredth entry.
what makes it even more beautiful is that exactly one year ago tomorrow i started this edition of maggie, unscripted.
that would mean that i posted precisely three hundred entries in one year.
well, i found it interesting, anyways.
point is, there are a lot of birthdays in september, and i'm going out tonight, so i hope you have a great eternal weekend, as weather does not seem to be in florida's favor anymore.
brand, on predicting whether school will be in session on monday: "it all depends on this idiot* that's headed our direction."
*hurricane ivan
what makes it even more beautiful is that exactly one year ago tomorrow i started this edition of maggie, unscripted.
that would mean that i posted precisely three hundred entries in one year.
well, i found it interesting, anyways.
point is, there are a lot of birthdays in september, and i'm going out tonight, so i hope you have a great eternal weekend, as weather does not seem to be in florida's favor anymore.
brand, on predicting whether school will be in session on monday: "it all depends on this idiot* that's headed our direction."
*hurricane ivan
Sep 9, 2004
bazooka 'zooka bubble gum
tomorrow is a day that shall live in famy, but i cannot reveal my beautiful surprise until then.
oh, and what a lame surprise it is.
anyways, i broke my third computer today in engineering. erv supposedly fixed it, but when i left fourth period it would not restart but only say that i had indeed f-ed up. something about a drive not fitting, which is complete crap.
i. hate. matlab.
today was alright other than that. tomorrow is friday, which made this a very easy week, and i have found a new hobby (for the time being). like everything else, i'll get sick of it if you'd just give me time to realize my crime.
i'm sorry. i really am. i won't do it again, karma chameleon, even though you come and go.
i mean, loving would be easy if your colors were like the wind: red, gold, and green.
red, gold, and green.
oh, and what a lame surprise it is.
anyways, i broke my third computer today in engineering. erv supposedly fixed it, but when i left fourth period it would not restart but only say that i had indeed f-ed up. something about a drive not fitting, which is complete crap.
i. hate. matlab.
today was alright other than that. tomorrow is friday, which made this a very easy week, and i have found a new hobby (for the time being). like everything else, i'll get sick of it if you'd just give me time to realize my crime.
i'm sorry. i really am. i won't do it again, karma chameleon, even though you come and go.
i mean, loving would be easy if your colors were like the wind: red, gold, and green.
red, gold, and green.
Sep 8, 2004
caterpillars that do the worm
i missed school. five days of weekend is five days too many.
i wrote both of my essays yesterday for my application and have set them aside for the rest of the week, hoping that with time they will become ripe and insightful.
what a load.
i have taken a liking to painting. it is my new boyfriend for the time being.
before i go, i have to ask you a question. you are required to answer it honestly:
do you really want to hurt me?
i wrote both of my essays yesterday for my application and have set them aside for the rest of the week, hoping that with time they will become ripe and insightful.
what a load.
i have taken a liking to painting. it is my new boyfriend for the time being.
before i go, i have to ask you a question. you are required to answer it honestly:
do you really want to hurt me?
Sep 7, 2004
puddles and pinball
"it's lonely here in outer space.
the nearest stars are miles away,
but i believe i'm on to something big."
i guess i'm in between. everything is now "this time two years ago," and it's just lonesome and very losery to be saying things like that.
i love that i have no commitments to anyone, no devotions to anyone, no promises i must keep, no questions i must answer. i love feeling what i want to feel, wearing what i want to wear, being who i want to be and changing for no one unless i want to. i love trying out new things and not having to always worry about the consequences.
but i don't love not having someone i can call my own, someone to be there for me when i don't even realize i need them them most, someone to kiss me on the forehead when i cry and hold my hand to make it go away.
"... but people don't just sit around all day waiting for things to end - you have to relish it while it's there; otherwise, you're missing the whole point."
i guess that should be something to live by.
sorry i don't make any sense. it's just that it's really hard sometimes when love is dangled right in front of your face and you can't catch it to save you.
the nearest stars are miles away,
but i believe i'm on to something big."
i guess i'm in between. everything is now "this time two years ago," and it's just lonesome and very losery to be saying things like that.
i love that i have no commitments to anyone, no devotions to anyone, no promises i must keep, no questions i must answer. i love feeling what i want to feel, wearing what i want to wear, being who i want to be and changing for no one unless i want to. i love trying out new things and not having to always worry about the consequences.
but i don't love not having someone i can call my own, someone to be there for me when i don't even realize i need them them most, someone to kiss me on the forehead when i cry and hold my hand to make it go away.
"... but people don't just sit around all day waiting for things to end - you have to relish it while it's there; otherwise, you're missing the whole point."
i guess that should be something to live by.
sorry i don't make any sense. it's just that it's really hard sometimes when love is dangled right in front of your face and you can't catch it to save you.
Sep 6, 2004
proportionally
only the second half of my street had the power go out.
all day.
everyone else was apparently fine.
but it wasn't that bad. i called dreamboat and we had some laughs, and later i went over to jim's house.
if you're wondering how we're faring over on the w. c. d. and you don't live in-state, it's probably just like how it is at your house, except there are pieces of tree everywhere, the pool is literally overflowing, and it hasn't stopped raining in over twenty-four hours.
other than that, we really didn't get it too bad - i just feel bad for those who did.
all day.
everyone else was apparently fine.
but it wasn't that bad. i called dreamboat and we had some laughs, and later i went over to jim's house.
if you're wondering how we're faring over on the w. c. d. and you don't live in-state, it's probably just like how it is at your house, except there are pieces of tree everywhere, the pool is literally overflowing, and it hasn't stopped raining in over twenty-four hours.
other than that, we really didn't get it too bad - i just feel bad for those who did.
Sep 5, 2004
just to give the non-locals an idea:
the rain is sometimes falling horizontally, which makes it not really falling but flying. the winds kick up at least once every minute such that all the shubbery and plants growing alongside a wall or window plaster themselves upon the house. there aren't really any clouds, but rather one large gray mass where the sky used to be. nothing drastic has happened here (yet), so hopefully nothing will. the power is still on, but i haven't seen one car go by all morning.
the neighbors moved back to pakistan.
the neighbors moved back to pakistan.
Sep 4, 2004
shallow days
adam duritz, you can sum up my life in a few lines.
hey mr. freedom -
what are we supposed to think?
hey mr. freedom -
what are we supposed to think?
Sep 3, 2004
homework assignment:
after viewing suspect zero , rent empire records .
the first person to tell me what made me and alicia nearly piss our pants tonight wins the gold.
oh, and twenty dollars or something.
minus the twenty dollars and the gold; i'll just give you something.
the first person to tell me what made me and alicia nearly piss our pants tonight wins the gold.
oh, and twenty dollars or something.
minus the twenty dollars and the gold; i'll just give you something.
Sep 2, 2004
x 2
well, well, well. it looks as though we have another hurricane on our hands.
while this is a dangerous perdicament in which we find ourselves, it is also a no-school perdicament.
natural disasters, i knew you were good for something.
while this is a dangerous perdicament in which we find ourselves, it is also a no-school perdicament.
natural disasters, i knew you were good for something.
Sep 1, 2004
spider king
i never realized just how funny the wide world of ebaum truly is until last night.
tonight is question marks still, so we'll see.
it was a much better day today than yesterday. the sudden death calculus test wound up not having horrendous results, and i mustered up the courage to put in twenty cents worth in english. i did the engineering lab correctly, and i missed my usual two on the history quiz ("did you study? did you study? huh? did you study?").
henery the eighth i am, i am.
everyone who didn't donate blood raise your hand.
i guess it's just me and the underclassmen.
needles. i mean, it doesn't even sound slightly pleasurable. no satisfaction guaranteed.
"i donated blood, but now i have a HUGE GAPING HOLE IN MY VEIN. how are you?"
"i'm intact, thank you."
that's my day.
tonight is question marks still, so we'll see.
it was a much better day today than yesterday. the sudden death calculus test wound up not having horrendous results, and i mustered up the courage to put in twenty cents worth in english. i did the engineering lab correctly, and i missed my usual two on the history quiz ("did you study? did you study? huh? did you study?").
henery the eighth i am, i am.
everyone who didn't donate blood raise your hand.
i guess it's just me and the underclassmen.
needles. i mean, it doesn't even sound slightly pleasurable. no satisfaction guaranteed.
"i donated blood, but now i have a HUGE GAPING HOLE IN MY VEIN. how are you?"
"i'm intact, thank you."
that's my day.
Aug 31, 2004
Aug 30, 2004
handbags and gladrags
it's been a homeworkie night - not much fun and very full of hamlet.
i can't talk now, so just circle one already.
i can't talk now, so just circle one already.
Aug 29, 2004
turtle ceramics
dear morningstar farms,
you messed up. you forgot to put "of death" underneath "spicy black bean burger."
just thought i'd let you know.
thanks for your accuracy.
not.
love,
maggie kennedy
now that that's out of the way, i made some pottery with alicia this afternoon. 'twas fun. the best part was her writing "nypd" instead of "nyfd."
fimes.
i'll dress you up in my love, all over, all over.
out of things to say.
(dream: just kidding. miracles don't happen, but i already told you that. he nearly pulled a scottsman, too, but didn't.)
you messed up. you forgot to put "of death" underneath "spicy black bean burger."
just thought i'd let you know.
thanks for your accuracy.
not.
love,
maggie kennedy
now that that's out of the way, i made some pottery with alicia this afternoon. 'twas fun. the best part was her writing "nypd" instead of "nyfd."
fimes.
i'll dress you up in my love, all over, all over.
out of things to say.
(dream: just kidding. miracles don't happen, but i already told you that. he nearly pulled a scottsman, too, but didn't.)
Aug 28, 2004
Aug 27, 2004
first in-school post of the year
i guess you know where i am.
so, my sister gets to go to more college since she passed some collegie test yesterday.
speaking of college, i can't wait until next year. i don't know if sweeney still wants to room with me now that she has somewhat of an idea of how crazy i am, but i still can't wait. i'd even be excited if a had to take a sarah titkemeir ("let's take it home to mother!").
i dislike making notecards.
sigh, ap exams. you rule my life from the future.
no matter. it's friday, and my friends and i have potentially begun to make potential plans for the weekend. ten-to-five saturdays are my new best friends.
until next time, lover.
so, my sister gets to go to more college since she passed some collegie test yesterday.
speaking of college, i can't wait until next year. i don't know if sweeney still wants to room with me now that she has somewhat of an idea of how crazy i am, but i still can't wait. i'd even be excited if a had to take a sarah titkemeir ("let's take it home to mother!").
i dislike making notecards.
sigh, ap exams. you rule my life from the future.
no matter. it's friday, and my friends and i have potentially begun to make potential plans for the weekend. ten-to-five saturdays are my new best friends.
until next time, lover.
Aug 26, 2004
LuV 2 CoLoR!!!!!!!111one
"no, you can't always get what you want;
you get what you need."
that pretty much sums up the day. it was terrific, but, as the song goes...
you get what you need."
that pretty much sums up the day. it was terrific, but, as the song goes...
Aug 25, 2004
a good song to be stuck in everyone's head.
why do you build me up (build me up),
buttercup, baby,
just to let me down (let me down)
and mess me around?
and then worst of all (worst of all)
you never call, baby,
when you say you will (say you will),
but i love you still.
i need you (i need you),
more than anyone, darling;
you know that i have from the start.
so, build me up (build me up),
buttercup; don't break my heart.
buttercup, baby,
just to let me down (let me down)
and mess me around?
and then worst of all (worst of all)
you never call, baby,
when you say you will (say you will),
but i love you still.
i need you (i need you),
more than anyone, darling;
you know that i have from the start.
so, build me up (build me up),
buttercup; don't break my heart.
alice and her wonderland.
test tomorrow, test yesterday, but never ever ever test today.
today was pretty alright. i'm not looking forward to the calculus test tomorrow, but then again, who is?
probably dream. even though she took it a few weeks ago. pssh. bc students.
new golf clubs are here for pops. it's a good thing.
i had a most interesting conversation with my parents over dinner concerning stock, shares, loans, interest, and social security. i now have a better - but not good - understanding of money i don't see.
i love rain.
i wrote something today, and only when i went to sign and date it did i realize that i have now been one year my own person. for as depressing as i thought today would be, it just wasn't. it was an average day, nothing spectaular, and i didn't give it much thought even after noticing, mainly because i had just written about it without realizing.
so now that i'm completely me, what next? new deal? fair deal? put another roosevelt in office?
today was pretty alright. i'm not looking forward to the calculus test tomorrow, but then again, who is?
probably dream. even though she took it a few weeks ago. pssh. bc students.
new golf clubs are here for pops. it's a good thing.
i had a most interesting conversation with my parents over dinner concerning stock, shares, loans, interest, and social security. i now have a better - but not good - understanding of money i don't see.
i love rain.
i wrote something today, and only when i went to sign and date it did i realize that i have now been one year my own person. for as depressing as i thought today would be, it just wasn't. it was an average day, nothing spectaular, and i didn't give it much thought even after noticing, mainly because i had just written about it without realizing.
so now that i'm completely me, what next? new deal? fair deal? put another roosevelt in office?
Aug 24, 2004
perfect taco number one.
what a fanFREAKINGtastic day.
i got to watch a movie, be part of a duo, laugh, interject in the socratic seminar, have some senior questions answered, laugh some more, watch another movie, rock out on a test, draw a funny diagram, sing some more, watch the rain, gain another service hour, and come home!
how about you?
i got to watch a movie, be part of a duo, laugh, interject in the socratic seminar, have some senior questions answered, laugh some more, watch another movie, rock out on a test, draw a funny diagram, sing some more, watch the rain, gain another service hour, and come home!
how about you?
Aug 23, 2004
oh, how nice to be motivated.
once spitten, forever smitten.
it was a great day, even when my vcr committed suicide. the james version of hamlet is more exciting anyways.
i saw alex after school. it was cool and he gave me a hispanic kiss on the cheek. he's one of the nicest, most sincere people i've ever met.
in case you haven't noticed, only foreigners, craig, and x can make a noise on the library cases using their fingertips.
i wish i had an accent. i do sometimes at work. i either go for southern or, when i'm feeling lucky, english.
time to get ready to fail a socratic seminar tomorrow because i simply don't talk in class.
it was a great day, even when my vcr committed suicide. the james version of hamlet is more exciting anyways.
i saw alex after school. it was cool and he gave me a hispanic kiss on the cheek. he's one of the nicest, most sincere people i've ever met.
in case you haven't noticed, only foreigners, craig, and x can make a noise on the library cases using their fingertips.
i wish i had an accent. i do sometimes at work. i either go for southern or, when i'm feeling lucky, english.
time to get ready to fail a socratic seminar tomorrow because i simply don't talk in class.
Aug 22, 2004
two out of three ain't bad.
i think the tampa bay trail is calling me again. hopefully my last outing broke in the skates, because blisters aren't much fun. if you read this within the hour, call me if you're up to coming.
my matlab still doesn't work. why does this always happen to me?
it's kind of nice that i don't have anything to do today - just some homework and studying, but that's really it. sundays truly are my fundays, bangles.
i feel like spending money on something i don't need. how about we go shopping?
i can tell this year is going to fly by. are you excited for college, or could you stand to wait the year out? i'm somewhere the between the two right now.
love me do.
my matlab still doesn't work. why does this always happen to me?
it's kind of nice that i don't have anything to do today - just some homework and studying, but that's really it. sundays truly are my fundays, bangles.
i feel like spending money on something i don't need. how about we go shopping?
i can tell this year is going to fly by. are you excited for college, or could you stand to wait the year out? i'm somewhere the between the two right now.
love me do.
a hamlet story.
i guess shakespeare wasn't meant to be a playwrite after all.
nor was my vcr ever meant to work.
i realize that i haven't made a real post in quite some time. this is due to lack of inspiration.
actually, that's a lie. i wrote about ten drafts, but they all wound up coming out crazy, so i just didn't post them.
anyways, my point is this:
goodnight.
nor was my vcr ever meant to work.
i realize that i haven't made a real post in quite some time. this is due to lack of inspiration.
actually, that's a lie. i wrote about ten drafts, but they all wound up coming out crazy, so i just didn't post them.
anyways, my point is this:
goodnight.
Aug 21, 2004
Aug 19, 2004
just an old-fashioned love song.
it's been that kind of a day, complete with all sorts of wardrobe malfunctions and a project that requres me to count rabbits within a given amount of square footage.
mrs. brand is a nut.
phelps wins another gold medal tonight for being charming and handsome.
and for being my current husband. hubba hubba.
a-cha cha cha.
mrs. brand is a nut.
phelps wins another gold medal tonight for being charming and handsome.
and for being my current husband. hubba hubba.
a-cha cha cha.
Aug 18, 2004
shns. ...wait a minute.
sister is home. all is well.
but i wish it would quit looking like it's going to rain and then not.
i have some pretty icky homework assignments - analyzing olde english poeutry, and then some gaylab problems. i love you, high school.
i say we join the fictional pink gang.
which reminds me of something jeff goldblum once said.
but i wish it would quit looking like it's going to rain and then not.
i have some pretty icky homework assignments - analyzing olde english poeutry, and then some gaylab problems. i love you, high school.
i say we join the fictional pink gang.
which reminds me of something jeff goldblum once said.
Aug 17, 2004
rachel still reads animorphs.
with that said, smeek comes back tonight.
i love my mins.
i seriously can't think of anything to say.
i love my mins.
i seriously can't think of anything to say.
Aug 16, 2004
life's a beach.
after a tiring fight with the internet options, i finally found the address bar. thank you, andrew, for answering my questions just as i simultaneously answer them myself.
what an idiot.
penellope is actually in one of my classes. go figure. too bad it's not a talking class.
i'm all nice and sneezie.
time to do the whole hamlet thing. the only comments i will accept on this post must advocate the banning of shakespeare works as public high school must-reads.
what an idiot.
penellope is actually in one of my classes. go figure. too bad it's not a talking class.
i'm all nice and sneezie.
time to do the whole hamlet thing. the only comments i will accept on this post must advocate the banning of shakespeare works as public high school must-reads.
Aug 15, 2004
a roayl engagement, indeed.
so, i just saw the second-best movie of all time. was it terrific? it was terrific.
tonight i will be participating in calculus, round ii. tickets are still available.
in case there was any confusion, i am engaged to michael phelps. sweeney believes she is, but alas it is love scorned for her.
not much else has happened today, so i don't have much to update on (in case you couldn't already tell).
snootchie bootchies.
tonight i will be participating in calculus, round ii. tickets are still available.
in case there was any confusion, i am engaged to michael phelps. sweeney believes she is, but alas it is love scorned for her.
not much else has happened today, so i don't have much to update on (in case you couldn't already tell).
snootchie bootchies.
Aug 14, 2004
margaret and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.
ok. so maybe it wasn't that bad, but you know.
i've begun to make plans for may the twelfth, and i think i want to go to club inifinity. sound good?
there's no excuses my friend; let's push things forward.
time to go.
i've begun to make plans for may the twelfth, and i think i want to go to club inifinity. sound good?
there's no excuses my friend; let's push things forward.
time to go.
Aug 13, 2004
it hasn't started to rain yet and i'm only slightly anxious and nervous, so i figured i would calm my nerves by saying something useless.
british rap is probably the funniest thing i have ever heard in my life. take for example the streets. i highly recommend you download something by them so we can have a nice conversation about this at a later time.
of course, this is assuming that we totally won't lose power for a few days.
this is also assuming that we're alive at a later time.
only slightly anxious, like i said.
alise: if you pooped ice cream, would you eat it?
i really didn't know how to answer.
i don't think steinmart will be open tomorrow either.
there's no excuses my friend; let's push things forward.
it looks creepy outside.
how about a poem? hmm? would that be nice?
"Sunspot"
Blisters and the summer -
Oh, it's always such a perfect match.
Bleeding in infinity
For the heartbreak that we know shall come,
And when the hour for ending
Again does hatch,
You will realize that our swansong
Shall never be done.
This beauty we share
Will always last.
Blisters and the summer -
What a crystal match.
in the few seconds it took me to copy and paste the above, it turned gray as hell. i'm out.
you're in my prayers.
british rap is probably the funniest thing i have ever heard in my life. take for example the streets. i highly recommend you download something by them so we can have a nice conversation about this at a later time.
of course, this is assuming that we totally won't lose power for a few days.
this is also assuming that we're alive at a later time.
only slightly anxious, like i said.
alise: if you pooped ice cream, would you eat it?
i really didn't know how to answer.
i don't think steinmart will be open tomorrow either.
there's no excuses my friend; let's push things forward.
it looks creepy outside.
how about a poem? hmm? would that be nice?
"Sunspot"
Blisters and the summer -
Oh, it's always such a perfect match.
Bleeding in infinity
For the heartbreak that we know shall come,
And when the hour for ending
Again does hatch,
You will realize that our swansong
Shall never be done.
This beauty we share
Will always last.
Blisters and the summer -
What a crystal match.
in the few seconds it took me to copy and paste the above, it turned gray as hell. i'm out.
you're in my prayers.
Aug 12, 2004
the return of the jim
so maybe it's a bit more serious than i originally thought. everyone was freaking out about the hurricane -whichever one it is - and i thought it was odd.
until i realized that it was coming straight for hillsborough.
so, this will most likely be my last post for a few days, at least.
if you're in pleasant weather, count your blessings, because i just may get a reclinada through the living room window as a nice afternoon present.
until i realized that it was coming straight for hillsborough.
so, this will most likely be my last post for a few days, at least.
if you're in pleasant weather, count your blessings, because i just may get a reclinada through the living room window as a nice afternoon present.
hurricane party.
i usually don't do the whole caps thing, nor am i particularly fond of exclamation points, but i've got one thing and one thing only to say:
YES!!!
YES!!!
Aug 11, 2004
hurricane party.
so, who doesn't want school to be cancelled on friday?
anyone?
that's what i thought.
pd2 came out today. i was going to see it with puffie, but i couldn't. apparently we'll have conflicting schedules for the rest of our lives, so i'll get around to renting it when i'm eighty.
in other news, i still sit somewhat next to bridget in economics. isn't it odd how that works out?
dad, on calculus: don't drink and derive.
does anyone else dislike making outlines as much as i do?
i think that's it.
goodnightway.
anyone?
that's what i thought.
pd2 came out today. i was going to see it with puffie, but i couldn't. apparently we'll have conflicting schedules for the rest of our lives, so i'll get around to renting it when i'm eighty.
in other news, i still sit somewhat next to bridget in economics. isn't it odd how that works out?
dad, on calculus: don't drink and derive.
does anyone else dislike making outlines as much as i do?
i think that's it.
goodnightway.
Aug 10, 2004
magic rub version calc2.0
me: in one class, three people read l.o.t.r.
mom: what's that?
me: and you call yourself my mother. it's lord of the rings. how about r.o.t.k.?
mom: i don't know.
me: return of the king. ...m.m.k.?
mom: something something king.
me: margaret mary kennedy!
mom: what's that?
me: and you call yourself my mother. it's lord of the rings. how about r.o.t.k.?
mom: i don't know.
me: return of the king. ...m.m.k.?
mom: something something king.
me: margaret mary kennedy!
Aug 9, 2004
red satin satan suit.
anyways. like i was saying.
in the morning:
i held one very enlightening conversation with the kirbs, one of my favorites. we had our senior assembly. i finally saw melissa and we got to talk all the way to the bottom middle end. i will have second period with bridget all year, which is cool because bridget is cool. economics is easy and chell. we must present our english report tomorrow and then i will be done with candide forever. i want to make a rifle for my engineering project. i love calculus.
in the afternoon:
i still love calculus, but not the games you have to play at the beginning of the school year to remember students' names which you will ultimately forget anyways. i'm excited about psychology and i think it will be a very interesting class. dana and i talked for about twenty minutes straight today and that totally made the rest of my afternoon, which was spent working, themeing, and - my personal favorite - sleeping.
in the morning:
i held one very enlightening conversation with the kirbs, one of my favorites. we had our senior assembly. i finally saw melissa and we got to talk all the way to the bottom middle end. i will have second period with bridget all year, which is cool because bridget is cool. economics is easy and chell. we must present our english report tomorrow and then i will be done with candide forever. i want to make a rifle for my engineering project. i love calculus.
in the afternoon:
i still love calculus, but not the games you have to play at the beginning of the school year to remember students' names which you will ultimately forget anyways. i'm excited about psychology and i think it will be a very interesting class. dana and i talked for about twenty minutes straight today and that totally made the rest of my afternoon, which was spent working, themeing, and - my personal favorite - sleeping.
a young mister nerdsmal.
today was pretty great. i have a gigantic headache right now, so i'll have to tell you about it later.
until then, it's homework time.
mmm. lockers.
until then, it's homework time.
mmm. lockers.
Aug 8, 2004
Aug 6, 2004
eep.
well, i guess that's that for summer.
i know you are reading this. i also know you know how to play pool. if you have patience and are free tomorrow night, let me know that, too, by calling me before 1:30 tomorrow.
as for now, i'm bored. i was talked out of getting the order, and no one is home. good grief fry day!
yes, the above comment was for my sissy.
i'm such a dork.
i know you are reading this. i also know you know how to play pool. if you have patience and are free tomorrow night, let me know that, too, by calling me before 1:30 tomorrow.
as for now, i'm bored. i was talked out of getting the order, and no one is home. good grief fry day!
yes, the above comment was for my sissy.
i'm such a dork.
Aug 5, 2004
i don't want to be an algebran.
so this is what my schedule looks like:
first: ap european history
second: economics honors / vietnam war history
third: ap literature
fourth: engineering 2
fifth: ap calculus ab
sixth: sociology / humanities i
seventh: ap psychology
the only class i don't know anyone in is sociology, and that's only a wimpy semester long.
yeah. it's going to be a good year.
how was everyone's day?
first: ap european history
second: economics honors / vietnam war history
third: ap literature
fourth: engineering 2
fifth: ap calculus ab
sixth: sociology / humanities i
seventh: ap psychology
the only class i don't know anyone in is sociology, and that's only a wimpy semester long.
yeah. it's going to be a good year.
how was everyone's day?
Aug 4, 2004
the end of the innocense.
...or summer.
and it's been raining all day, so i cleaned the house.
rachel is supposedly in tampa right this very minute, but since i have no clue where in tampa she is, nor can i possibly get in touch with her, i don't know if i'll wind up seeing her or not.
on another note, is anyone up for a scary movie night? let me know soon, because i'm in dire need to rent something creepy.
in fact, it's a good afternoon for that kind of thing.
"i do believe in spooks. i do, i do, i do believe in spooks."
i'm off to visit my lover at blockbuster.
maybe that's where rachel is...
and it's been raining all day, so i cleaned the house.
rachel is supposedly in tampa right this very minute, but since i have no clue where in tampa she is, nor can i possibly get in touch with her, i don't know if i'll wind up seeing her or not.
on another note, is anyone up for a scary movie night? let me know soon, because i'm in dire need to rent something creepy.
in fact, it's a good afternoon for that kind of thing.
"i do believe in spooks. i do, i do, i do believe in spooks."
i'm off to visit my lover at blockbuster.
maybe that's where rachel is...
Aug 3, 2004
too bad.
i'm going to keep the titles anyways. if everyone hates them, it's all the more reason to go with it.
one more day until the end of the endless summer. my final thoughts: this is it. next year, people will be busy doing family ish and starting college in the summer. i hope i didn't waste a day of it, but i know that either way i enjoyed every minute.
in all honesty, i can't wait for thursday. i can wait for the rest of the year, but not for thursday.
i really have nothing to say.
one more day until the end of the endless summer. my final thoughts: this is it. next year, people will be busy doing family ish and starting college in the summer. i hope i didn't waste a day of it, but i know that either way i enjoyed every minute.
in all honesty, i can't wait for thursday. i can wait for the rest of the year, but not for thursday.
i really have nothing to say.
Aug 1, 2004
candidnt
i've been reading aaaaaaaall afternoon by candle light, by jewel light, if only you will stay.
tonight is employee night after closing. if you want me to buy you something, let me know. note: you must either pay me in advance or have my trust, or it won't happen.
tomorrow, i'm boss. i find it funny that i have to hand the job over to someone else because i'll be going back to high school.
mom, on why she needs nectarines: the nectarines make it sweet.
me: like me?
mom: nope.
i'm gone.
tonight is employee night after closing. if you want me to buy you something, let me know. note: you must either pay me in advance or have my trust, or it won't happen.
tomorrow, i'm boss. i find it funny that i have to hand the job over to someone else because i'll be going back to high school.
mom, on why she needs nectarines: the nectarines make it sweet.
me: like me?
mom: nope.
i'm gone.
Jul 31, 2004
another rilo kiley fan jumps on the popcorn wagon. anyone else care to join?
it was pretty busy at work and i got kind of sick (physically, emotionally, literally, and every other -lly you can think of) towards the end. just before i was about to lose it, meghan came back and i high-tailed it out of that joint.
that's about all i can say for today. it was great until recently, and i have no idea why.
it was pretty busy at work and i got kind of sick (physically, emotionally, literally, and every other -lly you can think of) towards the end. just before i was about to lose it, meghan came back and i high-tailed it out of that joint.
that's about all i can say for today. it was great until recently, and i have no idea why.
Jul 30, 2004
goodbye, ruby tuesday. steinmart loses another one.
i'm terri next week. i need to step-up the complaint level. also, i need to lose about a million pounds and gain a foreign accent.
i'm up for the challenge.
the simon challenge, that is.
dream sure does love boogers.
oh. oh. oh. i can't believe i almost forgot to tell you: john kerry (yes; THE john kerry) sent a handwritten letter to my dad. i feel so special living in a house where a kerry letter resides.
don't you just love election year? the big guys get together and think of brilliant things they can waste their money on, like special fonts that look like handwriting or the most staged kodak moments you'll ever see in your life. we still have the authentic george and laura bush picture they took in front of... someplace, but that won't swing the vote.
did anyone else laugh when they saw that picture on schutz's bulletin board? i nearly peed myself. in fact, i'm pretty sure i did.
i totally had a terrific day.
hi. my name is nonsequential order.
the big n. o.
i want to go home.
i'm terri next week. i need to step-up the complaint level. also, i need to lose about a million pounds and gain a foreign accent.
i'm up for the challenge.
the simon challenge, that is.
dream sure does love boogers.
oh. oh. oh. i can't believe i almost forgot to tell you: john kerry (yes; THE john kerry) sent a handwritten letter to my dad. i feel so special living in a house where a kerry letter resides.
don't you just love election year? the big guys get together and think of brilliant things they can waste their money on, like special fonts that look like handwriting or the most staged kodak moments you'll ever see in your life. we still have the authentic george and laura bush picture they took in front of... someplace, but that won't swing the vote.
did anyone else laugh when they saw that picture on schutz's bulletin board? i nearly peed myself. in fact, i'm pretty sure i did.
i totally had a terrific day.
hi. my name is nonsequential order.
the big n. o.
i want to go home.
Jul 29, 2004
Jul 28, 2004
ok.
monday night: saw spiderman dos. terrific movie.
then the group minus dream went out to steak and shuffle, where andrew gave me janitor bear in the exclusive ecolab series.
tuesday, i knocked out a quarter of the ap european homework in the morning and went to work in the afternoon. rachel visited me and we made plans to do some (not-so) serious packing after i signed out. andrew stopped by later and we chortled over the true purpose of fashion tape.
that night, we threw two vases, a sock, and some bread into the pond at rachel's apartment, and we all discovered andrew cannot spell "murder."
rud rum.
today i took a tour at uf, home of the gators and (hopefully) the future home of me. after the tour, we met up with my sister for an hour or so.
surprise. she's going to california in a week.
i came home and left promptly to buy something neat for graham and something else that's neat for alan. i wonder if it's cool to share your birthday with someone.
sorry for leaving my away message on all day yesterday or monday or whenever that was. i don't think that's a particularly hip thing to do.
also, i will never see alicia again. it seems as though she is permanently on vacation.
if anyone by chance reads this and wants to hang out tonight or tomorrow morning (what am i saying?), let me know. i'm fond of spontaneatousity at the moment.
bye.
monday night: saw spiderman dos. terrific movie.
then the group minus dream went out to steak and shuffle, where andrew gave me janitor bear in the exclusive ecolab series.
tuesday, i knocked out a quarter of the ap european homework in the morning and went to work in the afternoon. rachel visited me and we made plans to do some (not-so) serious packing after i signed out. andrew stopped by later and we chortled over the true purpose of fashion tape.
that night, we threw two vases, a sock, and some bread into the pond at rachel's apartment, and we all discovered andrew cannot spell "murder."
rud rum.
today i took a tour at uf, home of the gators and (hopefully) the future home of me. after the tour, we met up with my sister for an hour or so.
surprise. she's going to california in a week.
i came home and left promptly to buy something neat for graham and something else that's neat for alan. i wonder if it's cool to share your birthday with someone.
sorry for leaving my away message on all day yesterday or monday or whenever that was. i don't think that's a particularly hip thing to do.
also, i will never see alicia again. it seems as though she is permanently on vacation.
if anyone by chance reads this and wants to hang out tonight or tomorrow morning (what am i saying?), let me know. i'm fond of spontaneatousity at the moment.
bye.
Jul 26, 2004
Jul 25, 2004
Jul 24, 2004
today was great.
i woke up late, decided that i should get up, and fell back asleep for another hour.
i went outside for a while to soak up the sun and did my nails in this horribly loud shade of red.
i worked with heelarious customers who were afraid to have me ring up their underwear and actually saw a chiuaua that i found to be cute.
meghan was at work, too, and the flavs came by for a bit.
i saw heather dickson and mrs. mccaffery, the latter of which i did not talk to, the former of which i had a pleasant conversation with.
i talked to dream for the entire duration of my break and we laughed about mayors and such.
i came home and ate pudding.
i laughed.
i put my feet on my dad's pillow.
all in all, it was a terrific day.
i woke up late, decided that i should get up, and fell back asleep for another hour.
i went outside for a while to soak up the sun and did my nails in this horribly loud shade of red.
i worked with heelarious customers who were afraid to have me ring up their underwear and actually saw a chiuaua that i found to be cute.
meghan was at work, too, and the flavs came by for a bit.
i saw heather dickson and mrs. mccaffery, the latter of which i did not talk to, the former of which i had a pleasant conversation with.
i talked to dream for the entire duration of my break and we laughed about mayors and such.
i came home and ate pudding.
i laughed.
i put my feet on my dad's pillow.
all in all, it was a terrific day.
i had to work in the morning.
semi-cool.
after work, i came home and piddled around, being piddlie and all. i called rachel and we talked and she talked to her mom and i talked to my mom and then we talked some more.
in the end, we wound up renting the butterfly effect, buying some free ice cream, and popping some kettle corn. a fun time was had by all.
were i not so tired at present, i would elaborate and make this a funny entry, but i am tired at present, and this is not a funny entry at all.
so, bye.
semi-cool.
after work, i came home and piddled around, being piddlie and all. i called rachel and we talked and she talked to her mom and i talked to my mom and then we talked some more.
in the end, we wound up renting the butterfly effect, buying some free ice cream, and popping some kettle corn. a fun time was had by all.
were i not so tired at present, i would elaborate and make this a funny entry, but i am tired at present, and this is not a funny entry at all.
so, bye.
Jul 22, 2004
it's been a good day, and it's only 2:10 in the afternoon.
this morning, i got up early to fix my schedule, which i didn't wind up fixing at all. i'm going to try to get into ap psychology in place of ap statistics, but of course, everything's still as it was this morning.
after that, i decided to hike down to citrus and check out the upper tampa bay trail. i suggest two pairs of socks for skating.
then i came home and sat outside making vitamin d.
how about you?
this morning, i got up early to fix my schedule, which i didn't wind up fixing at all. i'm going to try to get into ap psychology in place of ap statistics, but of course, everything's still as it was this morning.
after that, i decided to hike down to citrus and check out the upper tampa bay trail. i suggest two pairs of socks for skating.
then i came home and sat outside making vitamin d.
how about you?
Jul 21, 2004
Jul 20, 2004
i saw an elderly woman wearing a pink shirt that said "laugh." she had the funniest look on her face, but it sure as hell wasn't laughter.
anyways, i bought my homecoming dress.
i. love. it.
i'm looking forward to trying to match jewelry to it, because unlike last year's fiasco, this time it'll be easy. in fact, i already found AND bought the most bitching pair of earring i've ever seen in my life. another great feature is that it's a halter, so i don't even have to bother trying to get rid of tan lines.
like you really cared.
now i just need to get him to ask me.
anyways, i bought my homecoming dress.
i. love. it.
i'm looking forward to trying to match jewelry to it, because unlike last year's fiasco, this time it'll be easy. in fact, i already found AND bought the most bitching pair of earring i've ever seen in my life. another great feature is that it's a halter, so i don't even have to bother trying to get rid of tan lines.
like you really cared.
now i just need to get him to ask me.
Jul 19, 2004
Jul 18, 2004
i'm listening to all the music i loved sophomore year.
songs are one of two things that make me remember all sorts of stuff i forget, the other being my silly little sense of smell.
for example, i happed upon "i want to hear you sad" by early november.
woah. did THAT one throw me for a duzy.
that song makes me think about sunshine and teardrops and lonliness.
then i listened to "movies" by alien ant farm, a song i don't think i'll ever be able to sit through without crying.
well, or at least think about crying.
what i get out of that song is that hey - it sucks breaking up, and it's not going to be a happy ending even when you think you want it the most.
yeah. that's depressing enough for me.
"head over feet" by alanis morissette reminds me of one particular scene. every time i hear that song, i think of fourth grade. i was sitting on my bed with the radio on and had just realized that i left my role mole at church. that was a sad hour to pass.
"push" by matchbox twenty is another fourth grade song. i was daydreaming in the middle of the afternoon and the sun was shining in through my window very strong, but i was either too stupid or too lazy to move. the next time i heard it was a few years later. my mom and i were driving home from somewhere. i think i was wearing the green old navy shirt i wore for years and got rid of last summer. we were on bearss when it began to play.
what else?
"crash" by dave matthews band. that one takes me back to the day - the first day of fifth grade, that is. i was getting ready for school and was rightly excited. i was standing in front of the mirror in my purple polo and bluejeans when it came on. i put on my blue and silver flower necklace right when he said, "crash into me, baby."
something upsetting i have to admit is that there is one song that always makes me unbearably, suicidally depressed. it's not so much embarrassing that i get that way as it is the song that does it to me: "mama" by the spice girls. just why, i can't explain, but it was always greatly upsetting to me. the fact that it's a spice girls song just makes it all the more worse. perhaps that's why it's depressing to listen to.
"billy jean" makes me think of dancing in my biology class freshman year. that never happened, but i often thought of how cool it would be to walk into class one day wearing a black pantsuit and black hat and start "breaking it down," if you will, for mrs. yerves and her sixth period posse.
actually, any michael jackson song makes me want to pull that shit.
i mean, "made."
any crystal method ditty reminds me of last fall and steak and shake, mainly because i went into a techno frenzy right around homecoming. it therefore leads me to think of candles, giggling, and the being a total fag.
"brown-eyed girl" reminds me of my blue-eyed cousin's wedding.
all apples in stereo songs make me think of presque isle and being a hippy for the summer.
"sweetness" by jimmy eat world makes me think of alex and the most odd way to date someone. i distinctly remember listening to it on my green cd player around midnight in the front room of my grandmother's house in july in pennsylvania.
"drops of jupiter" = sharp turn onto the veterans expressway after my sister's high school graduation dinner at some foo-foo seafood place near the beach + purple lights and dana sleeping over at my house the summer before freshman year.
i'm typed out.
aren't you lucky?
songs are one of two things that make me remember all sorts of stuff i forget, the other being my silly little sense of smell.
for example, i happed upon "i want to hear you sad" by early november.
woah. did THAT one throw me for a duzy.
that song makes me think about sunshine and teardrops and lonliness.
then i listened to "movies" by alien ant farm, a song i don't think i'll ever be able to sit through without crying.
well, or at least think about crying.
what i get out of that song is that hey - it sucks breaking up, and it's not going to be a happy ending even when you think you want it the most.
yeah. that's depressing enough for me.
"head over feet" by alanis morissette reminds me of one particular scene. every time i hear that song, i think of fourth grade. i was sitting on my bed with the radio on and had just realized that i left my role mole at church. that was a sad hour to pass.
"push" by matchbox twenty is another fourth grade song. i was daydreaming in the middle of the afternoon and the sun was shining in through my window very strong, but i was either too stupid or too lazy to move. the next time i heard it was a few years later. my mom and i were driving home from somewhere. i think i was wearing the green old navy shirt i wore for years and got rid of last summer. we were on bearss when it began to play.
what else?
"crash" by dave matthews band. that one takes me back to the day - the first day of fifth grade, that is. i was getting ready for school and was rightly excited. i was standing in front of the mirror in my purple polo and bluejeans when it came on. i put on my blue and silver flower necklace right when he said, "crash into me, baby."
something upsetting i have to admit is that there is one song that always makes me unbearably, suicidally depressed. it's not so much embarrassing that i get that way as it is the song that does it to me: "mama" by the spice girls. just why, i can't explain, but it was always greatly upsetting to me. the fact that it's a spice girls song just makes it all the more worse. perhaps that's why it's depressing to listen to.
"billy jean" makes me think of dancing in my biology class freshman year. that never happened, but i often thought of how cool it would be to walk into class one day wearing a black pantsuit and black hat and start "breaking it down," if you will, for mrs. yerves and her sixth period posse.
actually, any michael jackson song makes me want to pull that shit.
i mean, "made."
any crystal method ditty reminds me of last fall and steak and shake, mainly because i went into a techno frenzy right around homecoming. it therefore leads me to think of candles, giggling, and the being a total fag.
"brown-eyed girl" reminds me of my blue-eyed cousin's wedding.
all apples in stereo songs make me think of presque isle and being a hippy for the summer.
"sweetness" by jimmy eat world makes me think of alex and the most odd way to date someone. i distinctly remember listening to it on my green cd player around midnight in the front room of my grandmother's house in july in pennsylvania.
"drops of jupiter" = sharp turn onto the veterans expressway after my sister's high school graduation dinner at some foo-foo seafood place near the beach + purple lights and dana sleeping over at my house the summer before freshman year.
i'm typed out.
aren't you lucky?
i was reading over some old entries. besides finding that i am a complete idiot (no comments about that statement, please.), i found the entry on the old lady who tried to talk to me on my lunch break last october.
you know, that still upsets me. i feel really weird and bad about it. in fact, i think about it a lot. not obsessively or anything, but it crosses my mind every now and then.
i mean, what if her husband had died a year ago that day and she was out trying to pass the lonely hours with pleasant conversation and a cup of sunshine?
what if her daughter had died of cancer a few years ago and she was trying to fill the void by talking to such a lovely young rose as myself (no comments on this, either.)?
what if her first grandson was stillborn that very same day at three o'clock in the morning and she wanted someone to laugh with to make it not seem so sad?
what if she had just come from the doctor's office and they told her she had a malignant tumor and that she would not live to see the next october?
this is why it upsets me.
why didn't i just say something to her?
you know, that still upsets me. i feel really weird and bad about it. in fact, i think about it a lot. not obsessively or anything, but it crosses my mind every now and then.
i mean, what if her husband had died a year ago that day and she was out trying to pass the lonely hours with pleasant conversation and a cup of sunshine?
what if her daughter had died of cancer a few years ago and she was trying to fill the void by talking to such a lovely young rose as myself (no comments on this, either.)?
what if her first grandson was stillborn that very same day at three o'clock in the morning and she wanted someone to laugh with to make it not seem so sad?
what if she had just come from the doctor's office and they told her she had a malignant tumor and that she would not live to see the next october?
this is why it upsets me.
why didn't i just say something to her?
Jul 17, 2004
yesterday was pretty cool, after i got over wanting to puke all over the back seat. long fights ended, and i talked to lion guy.
i'm going to get my pictures developed today. not that any of you care, because it's not like you'll ever see them.
school starts relatively soon. i've got mixed emotions on that. how about you?
well, for lack of anything better to say, i'm going to begin my travels around t-town. if i go into work and find that i am scheduled for today, i'll kill someone.
i'm going to get my pictures developed today. not that any of you care, because it's not like you'll ever see them.
school starts relatively soon. i've got mixed emotions on that. how about you?
well, for lack of anything better to say, i'm going to begin my travels around t-town. if i go into work and find that i am scheduled for today, i'll kill someone.
Jul 16, 2004
Jul 7, 2004
well, i found a puter.
so i'm at ocean isle beach with my aunt kerry. we went to the beach this morning and turned all sorts of shades of mexico in this 100 degree weather.
after that, my mom and i went shopping, and my aunt and my dad played some golf. guess who won?
ok. so there's no need to guess.
we all met up again and went out to dinner at sharky's, an open-air place where heat is the main course, as well as the appetizer, dessert, and refillable beverage of choice.
i then had a hee-larious conversation with andrew while my dad was driving crazy and missing turns left and right (pun intended). we shopped in callihan's of callibash, the store that does. not. end. after that, we got some tasty ouse cream at someplace.
and now i am here, spinning around in this nice spinning chair, getting dizzy and talking to my dad about the unpleasantness of literal meaning of the phrase "bite me."
needless to say, it's a deep conversation, and we all know i can't do two things at once.
and, well, you lose.
so i'm at ocean isle beach with my aunt kerry. we went to the beach this morning and turned all sorts of shades of mexico in this 100 degree weather.
after that, my mom and i went shopping, and my aunt and my dad played some golf. guess who won?
ok. so there's no need to guess.
we all met up again and went out to dinner at sharky's, an open-air place where heat is the main course, as well as the appetizer, dessert, and refillable beverage of choice.
i then had a hee-larious conversation with andrew while my dad was driving crazy and missing turns left and right (pun intended). we shopped in callihan's of callibash, the store that does. not. end. after that, we got some tasty ouse cream at someplace.
and now i am here, spinning around in this nice spinning chair, getting dizzy and talking to my dad about the unpleasantness of literal meaning of the phrase "bite me."
needless to say, it's a deep conversation, and we all know i can't do two things at once.
and, well, you lose.
Jul 5, 2004
tonight i gave the best goodbye a girl could give to the best friend a girl could have for fourteen years.
it's odd how so many things can change, and yet others still remain quite the same.
we quit having classes together long ago; english this year was a stroke of good luck. we no longer share all the same friends, nor clubs nor other hobbies. our jobs are quite different, and the situations we have been placed in differ in infinity - i don't think i could leave this place; you are certainly stronger.
but what we share is so spectacularly unique that i will not even try to explain it. it's a special bond between two friends that can be seen in a two-hour conversation with no lull, that can be witnessed in the sweet memory of childhood games, that can be heard in the laughter still shared after the inevitable passage of time and an oncoming separation by miles.
there are many times when i think that all i ever recall from yesterday was just something i made up in my spare time to make it seem like i had a friend, but i know in my heart that i always had one and always will.
so here's to you. i will miss you infinitely, but God will not lead you astray; i know you will prosper in your ventures and shine like the star you always were. know that you are in my heart and in my prayers, and that the legend of the fudgecows shall never die (it was necessary to kill the moment.).
i love you!
it's odd how so many things can change, and yet others still remain quite the same.
we quit having classes together long ago; english this year was a stroke of good luck. we no longer share all the same friends, nor clubs nor other hobbies. our jobs are quite different, and the situations we have been placed in differ in infinity - i don't think i could leave this place; you are certainly stronger.
but what we share is so spectacularly unique that i will not even try to explain it. it's a special bond between two friends that can be seen in a two-hour conversation with no lull, that can be witnessed in the sweet memory of childhood games, that can be heard in the laughter still shared after the inevitable passage of time and an oncoming separation by miles.
there are many times when i think that all i ever recall from yesterday was just something i made up in my spare time to make it seem like i had a friend, but i know in my heart that i always had one and always will.
so here's to you. i will miss you infinitely, but God will not lead you astray; i know you will prosper in your ventures and shine like the star you always were. know that you are in my heart and in my prayers, and that the legend of the fudgecows shall never die (it was necessary to kill the moment.).
i love you!
Jul 4, 2004
don't rent mystic river . ever.
i'm all packed and ready to go. it's exciting to know i won't be steinmart's bitch for the next few weeks.
i started on the homework. it's a really easy assignment. then again, i haven't looked at it in a few days, so maybe it has morphed into something i'll never finish.
look at that. it already did.
is anyone up for spiderman 2 ?
i need to go outside and bake.
perhaps that would make me - how you say... half-baked?
like a 'tato.
i'm all packed and ready to go. it's exciting to know i won't be steinmart's bitch for the next few weeks.
i started on the homework. it's a really easy assignment. then again, i haven't looked at it in a few days, so maybe it has morphed into something i'll never finish.
look at that. it already did.
is anyone up for spiderman 2 ?
i need to go outside and bake.
perhaps that would make me - how you say... half-baked?
like a 'tato.
Jul 3, 2004
monday is laura's goingawayforever party. sad like woah.
on a happier note, beagle puppies.
we're leaving for myrtle beach/erie on tuesday, so if i forget to update, i shall type again in two weeks.
also, if you would like to text me while i'm gone, i will gladly receive your messages and think fondly of you.
unless you are a fudgey.
i really have nothing to say.
good day.
on a happier note, beagle puppies.
we're leaving for myrtle beach/erie on tuesday, so if i forget to update, i shall type again in two weeks.
also, if you would like to text me while i'm gone, i will gladly receive your messages and think fondly of you.
unless you are a fudgey.
i really have nothing to say.
good day.
Jul 1, 2004
july is the strangest month.
what ever happens in july? after the fourth, there's really nothing to look forward to, because we all know it's the most stagnant month of all, sandwiched between the middle month, neutral june, and the anxiously awaited new-school-year month, august.
i mean it.
every time you think of a fond memory, it didn't take place in july, did it?
no. because nothing ever happens in july.
no one finds a boyfriend because the summer is almost over and no one wants to chance any new relationship trickling back to high school.
no one gets married because it's too damn hot everywhere.
no one has a birthday, except for maybe two people. ever.
no one reads a great book because we're all cramming summer reading assignments into thirty-one days, far too occupied with writing half-hearted essays to actually enjoy the characters.
no one writes poetry.
no one plays football.
no one's cat has kittens.
when you're having an odd day and completely forget what time of year it is, you think it's either december or april.
do you get what i'm saying?
vote for:
suvs.
goats.
satin.
worms.
clocks.
boats.
trees.
the new eleven-month calendar.
what ever happens in july? after the fourth, there's really nothing to look forward to, because we all know it's the most stagnant month of all, sandwiched between the middle month, neutral june, and the anxiously awaited new-school-year month, august.
i mean it.
every time you think of a fond memory, it didn't take place in july, did it?
no. because nothing ever happens in july.
no one finds a boyfriend because the summer is almost over and no one wants to chance any new relationship trickling back to high school.
no one gets married because it's too damn hot everywhere.
no one has a birthday, except for maybe two people. ever.
no one reads a great book because we're all cramming summer reading assignments into thirty-one days, far too occupied with writing half-hearted essays to actually enjoy the characters.
no one writes poetry.
no one plays football.
no one's cat has kittens.
when you're having an odd day and completely forget what time of year it is, you think it's either december or april.
do you get what i'm saying?
vote for:
suvs.
goats.
satin.
worms.
clocks.
boats.
trees.
the new eleven-month calendar.
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