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Do you ever take a step back from your life and think, "WHAT THE FUCK?"

I have recently come to the realization that my life is not only on a chain, but also a conglomeration of "Huh?"s and "ORLY?"s. I mean seriously: what the fuck.

I woke up this morning knowing something weird was going to happen today, and it did, but I can't tell you what it was because it's not something I can put into words. It's that feeling halfway between complete doom and complete freedom - the way the Earth looks right before a huge storm that never happens transcribed to human experience.

I have no idea what is going on. Maybe someone slipped more overdue Shirataki noodles into my soup when I was in the bathroom smelling the soap - I don't know. What I do know is that the world is either going to explode or implode at a time not too far from now, and then all this - the research, the interviewing, that bitchy little nurse who has it out for me - will amount to an ethnography of something no one will ever be able to read.

What the fuck.